dr. feelgood

I guess I have a mild case of the winter blahs. It's cold outside, and it's hard to keep the house warm. Plus there's been all this lovely construction going on here all week. It's almost done, and the floors are so much nicer now (I'll show you when they're all, all done), but still, the commotion is kerbobbling... sure, it's a word.

I just kind of feel like hibernating. It's hard to get me to leave the house at all these days. Rick dragged me out for dinner last night, but that was only because I knew there was nothing to eat in the house, and we were both too tired to cook. Other than that, I'm in for the weekend. But it's interesting how little bits of comfort are finding their way to me. Friends are dropping in later today, and things are coming to me in emails and by way of the Taos News, which normally has nothing much to offer.

In case you're in need of a little comfort, I'll share with you here...

My dear pal Sally Reed, in Seattle, has just launched three beautiful blogs, to support her two businesses, and one just for fun. I happen to think all three are fun. Here you go! Seattle Hypnosis Center, Akua Healing Arts, and SkyBluPinkyPurple.

Next up, I saw an ad in the Taos News this morning for the Moenavi Clothing Company. They make and sell warm, wonderful hats, and put a lot of their profits into clothing for the the local homeless shelter. You know me... I'm all over a good deed that doubles as a shopping experience! I bought a hat. As cold as it's been here lately, I could use a full body hat!

And last - yes, this one is kind of odd - I got the most caring, comforting, "forwarded" email from my friend Jeanne in Santa Fe. Normally I don't read these things because they're too long, and forwards generally don't feel personal. But I did read this one for some reason, and when I got to the end of it, I realized it was a "channelled" message from Mary Magdalene. Believe it or not. Read it or not. I'll just tell you it made me feel better.

"I INVITE YOU,.who are drenched in Time to recover your Self
come out of time and taste your immortal air go back as far as you can to find them....
Gifts of understanding and compassion that only pain can give.
a passion for truth and beauty that only suppression from past lives can give.
a desire for fire. for light that only the depths of darkness can bring forth.
a fire that burns so strong it can purify, burn away, transform.
it can return and start anew. from the ancestors. from our mother's bones.
and we, can tell the story, we can go back far as our bones.

i invite you to go that far.

go, so that you can feel the bones and bring them back.
to where we can learn and grow them here.
be patient. you cannot rush this deep and ancient process.

we call this into the night, we burn away years of grief and pain,
blood spilled upon the earth.
we raise our eyes from the ground and i see ourselves reflected.

all of our metaphors are merging.
we remember.
we who have already seen it all.

the We who wander the wilderness and feel no thirst.

LET'S FEED OUR INNER CHILD!!
I write these words to you from a place beyond time, to tell you what you of great heart must know from within it. You stand at a crucial moment, one which can allow you wondrous advantage in the time of the turning of the great wheel.

As you begin this new year a vacuum is opened in which you can reconsider your reality. This is a powerful opportunity, for it is in your reality that the seed of the greater collective is born.

This, beings of flame and light, is the year to reclaim your power. For you will need it for the road ahead, and it will be the bearer of your joy. This is not a passive process. To reclaim your power is to investigate your heart, seek out the places you have given its gold away, and actively recover it. The gold of your heart can only truly be shared from within, and the places we may have partitioned it out will only weaken our energy fields at a time when their strength is needed.

You will need your voice. If you have lost it you will have to find it. You are its mother, so it will never be too far from your reach. It is time to cull from the clay of your being, and create yourself anew.

It is a time to take a retreat, or to make space to reflect in writing or thought. It is a time to consider all the people, places, situations and things in your life and decide if they are supporting you or drawing from you. This you must know, for this is the simplest of ways to strengthen your field.

Then you must decide. You must decide who you are going to be when your power is truly your own again, and the life you want to live from it.

When you decide the life you would like to have, do not do so in fear. Do not choose a life based on potential catastrophe or in expectancy of poverty. For this is not what you wish to bring forward. You must be aware, educated and prepared for that which you are led to prepare for. But should you make the choices about your future or new life in fear, it will make a very weak foundation.

The coming year marks the beginning of the end of the world you know. This can be a reason for terror or for throwing a celebration. It is you who decides. This world has known catastrophe before, just as you in your own life have known catastrophe before. For that reason you know that fearing it will bring no good. We must know joy to build reserves of energy which would serve us in times of challenge. We must have a light load within if we wish to float rather than sink in the seas of uncertainty.

For when I say this year marks the beginning of the end, you may focus on the end, or you may focus on the beginning. For it is more truly, the beginning or the end.

How differently might you see your life if you thought this year was the beginning of a new era, rather than the descent into great destruction and distress? If we are all dreading the time of change, who will anchor the joy of the new? If we are all in labor pain, who will assist with the birth?

But our joy cannot be abstract. It must be inspired. It must come from within, and be allowed to take form in our outer lives at the very personal level. And joy cannot be forced. We can only make way for it.

Here are my offerings of how to cultivate your inner earth for joy to take seed and root, to make your life thriving and prosperous with flower and fruit.

Don't postpone your bliss. There is no reason it can't start now.

Find, with great courage, the places you have been giving your power away, and say goodbye to them. For if you are giving your power away repeatedly, joy cannot find consistent sanctuary within you.

Dream a new vision. Turn a page in your life and imagine that the entirety of your future is a blank slate. Do not paint misfortune onto it as a background just because your world is in change. See the change as good. Bless the change. Trust that the universe will take care of you, and follow the guidance it gives you. Prepare when and how you must for whatever you feel may be around the corners in your life, but try not to do so out of fear, and instead out of calm and centered response to your guidance.

When you are choosing what to paint on this blank page, choose powerfully. Choose to carry over only that which nourishes you and reflects you. Think radically. Let go radically. Love yourself radically.

This is a year of setting foundation for the changes to come, and you want yours to be strong and full of supportive resourcefulness and creative energy. Do not give up on your dreams because the world is shifting. She is shifting to encompass them.

Draw or write about your visions for your future before or at the time of the new year. Revisit and add to or change them several times. Daydream about them. Pray, if you choose, to me for three days either in the morning, before sleeping, or during your meditation or writing if you would like assistance with your new vision or reclaiming your power. Then look for signs in your life in response.

Know that I am with you. For I have returned to the consciousness of the many as the embodiment of the return of the goddess, in communion with god, in androgynous wholeness, in divine oneness. I am the second coming, and I come forward in you. Know your power. It is all that is needed for the birth of the new world. Begin the new world now. Do not wait. Begin to live it in your life, and create it around you. You are the hope and the light, and the joy of my heart.

IN GREAT LOVE,..MARY MAGDALEN"

OK - that's all I have for you today. I think we all need a little extra love this time of year. If you have something to share with us, please post it in a comment!
Smooches to you all!